Lost souls
So many lost souls
Searching for something bigger than themselves
To fill the emptiness in their lives
Finding only fragments
Pieces of joy, pieces of sadness
Pieces of hope, pieces of despair
Pieces of redemption, pieces of anything
Small pieces, small ideas, small ideals
Thousands, millions, billions of them through time
And still they do not fill the void
Still, they are restlessly searching in the dark
Still, they are lost souls.
...or not to break their hearts. That is the ultimate question. When you strip away the pros and cons, the dos and donts, all you're left with is the raw emotion. The human conflict of love and hate, pride and disappointment, triumph and despair. It is always said that you should do what's right for you, or what you do should be for you and not anyone else. But no man is an island unto himself. Every action is a toss of a stone into the pond of life, sending ripples out in all directions. It becomes less about where the stone lands and more about the ripple effect. How far will it reach and how much will it affect. To some it will be a slight tremor, to others, a tidal wave. To some it will nudge them in the right direction, to others it would capsize their lives.
It will break their hearts, but just as the ripples die, so will the pain. Just as the stone will find a new resting place, so will I. In time, the pond will be at peace again, and life will go on.
Everything is meant to be. Events were, are, and will be no matter what. It is only an issue of time. The concept of time is the reason why things happenEND, are happenING, or WILL happen. Foresight and hindsight are merely different lenses through which we view the same event from different perspectives. Changing how you feel about, or how you handle the event, does not change the event itself. Only time can put matters behind us or ahead of us. To be afraid of what is to be is to be afraid of what has already been.
“Men fail not because they heard the wrong voice but because they ignored the right voice—the voice of the Holy Spirit”
There will never be a day in our lives that we will never hear the right voice. It can be through God’s audible voice, through the inner voice, through our conscience, through our mentors, through our parents, through someone else, through the revealed will of God—the Bible.
If we are going to interview people who failed we will realize that there’s a voice/advice that they have ignored. It is not Delilah that lead Samson to failure it is Samson’s decision to ignore the advice of his parents that lead him to failure. Even Jezebel and Absalom have heard the voice of God thru His prophets yet they have chosen to ignore it…the rest is history.
I can still remember all the failures, hurts, struggles and sorrows I have experienced are because I have ignored the unrecognized whisper of the Holy Spirit, inner conviction, very quick idea, many advices of my mom, etc.. trying to comprehend and be logical as possible based on my own reasons which I believe is better that what I’ve heard and chosen to ignore…
I also remember before, I just love to spend time in the presence of God because I felt so much joy and satisfaction I could not explain and nothing could ever surpassed it. I grabbed every opportunity just to be with Him. Especially during revival years at COP (1995-2000) whenever there’s an altar call, I don’t care what group they are calling I just slipped into the platform just to be laid hands by pastor and enjoy “carpet time” with Him. I told God I don’t want to missed the voice of the Holy Spirit I will really follow it for I know that’s the best for me. So I kept on asking God to let me hear His voice. I am expecting that God will just whisper to my ears and reveal to me His will for my life. Give me every instruction I will ever need in life. Although I have received vision from Him of His promises for me for my future such as “He will make me the head though I don’t deserve it just by looking with my abilities, He will make me prosperous and I will have more than enough to be a channel of blessings, That all things will work good for me no matter how negative and ugly the situations seem to be, That His light will shine through me…” I know He unfolded to me the future He has for me. But I am expecting that He will just tell me everything, every detail that I need to know to experience the life that He wants me to have without knowing that He is already telling me everything that I need to know and I need to do through my mom who I always grieve by not following her advices. I did not recognize the voice of the Holy Spirit thru her so I missed all the blessings of obedience…If I just obeyed every instruction of my mom whom the Holy Spirit chosen to reveal everything I need to do…I should never gone through those experiences…
The Holy Spirit whispers to our ears His plans. He urged us through the inner conviction. He guides us by giving us ideas and pictures of the futures He want us to have. He protects us through His words, revealed will—the bible. He guides and leads and gives us instructions through our mentors, our parents, those who are in the mantle of authority over us, those God sends to let us know His will. We must recognize them. The Holy Spirit will not tell us in the secret place what He can tell through the people around us. He will not bypass those who are in authority over us. He is a God of order. He will not contradict His laws.
Steps to Follow for School Loan Consolidation
Before getting your school loan consolidated, you need to have thorough information about school loan consolidation process. The main aim of school loan consolidation programs is to handle your finances proficiently by offering you number of flexibilities and advantages. These loans make it convenient to make your payments to one lender and improve your credit scores by reducing monthly payments.
Loan consolidation programs are meant to create new consolidated loans and to bring multiple loans under one debt. These programs make your loan repayment possible by combining several types of educational loans into one new loan. The major benefit of loan consolidation is the low interest rate which make borrower's less likely to default on a loan. The monthly payment amount on a consolidated loan is usually low and you are permitted to make your payments once in the month. Additionally, the amount of time to repay may be extended beyond what was offered in last loan programs. These features make the payment of your loans more convenient and manageable.
After taking your decision to get your school loan consolidated, you need to see which category you fall in.
• Both students and parents are eligible to get their loans consolidate but not under one package.
• Married students cannot get their loans consolidate together. Each of the spouses is responsible individually for the payment.
• You can consolidate your school loan during your grace period, but not if you are still in school.
• Loans that are in default can be consolidated but should have a satisfactory repayment arrangement.
Before getting your loans consolidate, you need to find how many consolidation programs are available and which will suit your credentials the most. The two major types of loans are; federal consolidation loans and private consolidation loans.
Federal consolidation loans are further divided into two major categories, namely, Federal Family Education Loan (FFEL) program and the Federal Direct Loan program.
Federal Family Education Loan program offers loan from private lenders. These loans are guaranteed by the guarantors and reinsured by the federal government. 4 types of federal consolidation loans are available:
1. Stafford (Subsidized): In this loan the interest being accumulated is paid by the federal government.
2. Stafford (Un-subsidized): The interest that is being accrued is payable by the student even if he is enrolled in school.
3. PLUS: These loans can be used by the parents with a good credit history, so they can pay for their child's educational expenses.
4. Perkins: These low interest rate loans are suitable for needy children who want to continue their education.
US department of education have introduced Federal direct Loans for the convenience of the students. This program offers the following loans:
1. Direct Subsidized Consolidation Loans: These loans are eligible for interest subsidies, such as subsidized FFELP and Direct Loans, and Federal Perkins Loans.
2. Direct Unsubsidized Consolidation Loans: These loans are not eligible for interest subsidies. If you want any of your unsubsidized loans to be consolidated, then you will receive an Unsubsidized Direct Consolidation Loan.
3. Direct PLUS Consolidation Loans: These loans combine FFELP PLUS and Direct PLUS loans.
After selecting a good consolidating package, you need to look for a trustworthy lender. It is of vital importance to find out about the reputation and credibility of the consolidating company you are going to deal with. Here are few relevant questions which will help you evaluate the status of the company.
• What are the special features of their consolidating package?
• Since how many years they have been in this business?
• What benefits or discounts the company offers?
• Their consolidation program is enrolled under federal loan or the private loan?
• How much do they charge for the application processor is it free of cost?
After selecting a consolidating company according to your requirements, ask for their information package either by post or by e-mail. If you agree to their terms and conditions mentioned in the form, sign it and send it back to the company. Then the company verifies your pending debts from your previous lender. They send the check of the amount payable by you after receiving a verification certificate from the lender.
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I have been tasked with writing a classification/division essay pertaining to a list of subject choices. I have chosen to write an essay on types of sports. I decided to write an essay that includes the training, rules and requirements for basketball, baseball, and football. Does anyone have any advise.
Life is unpredictable. Sometimes no matter how perfect your plan is, it turns out to be the other way round. When this happen has you ever stop and think? Maybe God has another plan for you? Or do you find blames in other people? Do you ever stop and try to reflect your own self? Sometimes, we just too ignorant to admit that we are on the wrong track. Sometimes, we just trying so hard to get what we want. But worst of all, sometimes, we always see other people‘s life are much more fun, perfect and happier than us. We envy them so much until we forgot that happiness can exist in little things that we take for granted.
All that we do is all that we believe. Without belief, there is no action. With out action there is no life. Because we live, we believe. We believe today will be more promising than yesterday; yielding more productivity, or more happiness. We believe in who we are, how we dress, what we eat, what we say, what we think, and what we do…or so we believe. What happens when that belief is questioned, in your mind, when you’re alone. Away from the reinforcements of that belief, and away from the reminders of what that belief stands for. Do we really believe we really believe? What happens when you stop believing in something? Naturally, we move on, but what if there is nothing else to believe in? Is it at all possible to believe in nothing and move on? You must have something to believe in if you are to move on. Sometimes, you may not yet know what that something is but if you really think about it, just moving on is the belief that you can; you believe in the value of life and the worth of living it. Even if you’re lost, confused, and afraid, you believe it’s worth trying.
Things are going great for me i got a psp for christmas im with my friends and best friends i am back with the most nicest girl ever tamara and i am with my family who is getting along just fine everything is great except my grandpa is in the hospital in
Cleavland and my dad is there so ya i hope all that settles down i still play DBZT3 and rock im hoping that things will always be the same as it is from now on this is the way i want it and i hope my grandpa gets better cause im praying it will i believe it but i am glad to be happy i love my mom and my dad and my best funny crazy silly mean best brother ever wes we fight sometime but we still look out for one another no matter what cause thats what brothers do i am gonna do my best to make my life complete and the best and be an adult a responsable adult and help everyone out peace.
From
Cody Madison Marcum
(Kodak,CoCo,Turtle,Codeman,Codemyster)
those are my nicknames from every friend i had and family lol so ya take care yall peace out!
Hi!
I am just a new kid in this town.. I have dreamt all my life for being a writer. Hopefully, joining this website can give me some inspiration to find some idea for writing.
Sometimes I just think that there are already too many writing pieces available while there are not too many readers,-I mean the serious readers. So, this discourages me to kick out my starting piece.
However, there are also many times I see many writing pieces which are not worth reading as well.
Therefore, now! Here! I am, please help me to start what I love to do.. I need to tell you, guys, my work will be something worth reading, even a short one.
I also open for joining the other's project.
Bye for now.
I tied at DBZT3 but i still knew some moves that he didnt think i could do he beat me twice i beat him twice i am good at that game and he is to dang man will still go at it to find out who is the best at it its a tie but it isnt over yet
i was so sad because i got a bad grade in my class . This was a writing class , i think i would pass but i failed this class . In the future , i have to look at back in my thinking and ability . Hopefully , somebody will help me give up myself
I like alot of fighting like Dragon Ball Z Inuyasha and the games to my favorite 2 caracters are Goku And Vegeta there cool when they transform into there super sayian froms it gose from a Great Ape,Super Sayian,Ultra Super Sayian,Super Sayian 2,Super Sayian 3,and Super Sayian 4 i like when they fuse to into Vegeto and Gogeta.And my favorte caracter of Inuyasha is of corse is Inuyasha because of his claws iron reavor soul steeler and blades of blood those are his moves hes half humen half demon,he has a sord call the Tetsiga it has 3 moves that are powerfull Wind Scar,Backlashwave,and Adoment Veroge,his sord is the strongest sord of all and it came from a fang.I also like football basketball and baseball.I drive around on my forewheeler alot to.And I get so hungery I eat alot of food.And I work out alot,bench pressing,joging,weights,push ups,sit ups,jumping jacks,chin ups,jump rope,and bike ride.And the last thing I like to do is hang out with my friends and play video games.These are things I like to do.
wazzup everybody my name is eddy conner but some people call me ace those are my three first letters of my first middle and last name so here are some things about me i hang out with my friends play baseketball,football and other sports that i like i have no family that cares for me only my brother willie,my dad,grandma and my girlfriend kendra and my littie sister julie. my mom is a witch all the time even when i don't do anything wrong some times i like to make her mad and others get her really really mad at me all the time even on the weekends just to have fun.
I cant stand teachers sometimes they drive me crazy theres one that says she will write me up for sleeping and stay after school but no one gets it that i will walk right out yep thats right what now
see every one is always telling me to thank before i speak but thank about this if you thought about everything you ever did you would do nothing but thank for the rest of your life some time you just have to do it wrong or right you cant spend your life thanking if you want to have a life thats way they say every one makes mistakes thank about that
My life sometimes sucks and sometimes rocks I play the guitar and im in a band called Devils From Hell and I ride forewheelers and dirtbikes and go carts.I watch kick ass fighting shows and I go to partys and do what I want when I want im 17 going 18 when july 8th comes around and I cant wait cause when im 18 ill be moving out.I graduate highschool next year and will be going to collage next year I have lots of friends where I live at and im really happy for myself.
wait ok just thank about this for a second do you ever thank god for feeling good or for a grandma, mom or dad well did you thank about way your thanking him some times cause i want you to thank about this ok you look at friends and say i'm sorry when their mom dies or your gets sick and then you'll thank good its not you your kinda happy in a way you get happy off of others miss fortions is that right i mean thank about it shouldn't you be thanking good for your life and the abilty to help others not for what he dose or dose not do for you so just take a second next time before you thank god cause it should be for the right reasons
this is a little peace of my mind not that there is much in the first place but i'm 19 years old and i feel like i'm 40 sometimes its crazy i feel like life is so unfair and you know what it is you should never have to find you dad almost dead or see your mom on her death bed or watch your grandma take her last breath but i have and i'm so thankful that my mom and dad are both still here. i still have alot to learn but all the times they said one day you'll thank me for this and i said ya right well i've eat my words cause i do thank them i dont smoke or do drugs at all and i thank the things they said and them as poeple for all the life lessons i have had all ready but the really reason i'm writing this is cause i want every young person that may read this or older poeple who read this if you have any problems with your mom or dad fix them forgive them or say your sorry do something cause one day it will be to late and for every one out there who waited to long and nolonger have the chance to make things right i feel for all of you cause its a pain that will never leave you it will always be on your mind so tell next time live your life the best you can.
Hello,
My name's Samar. I'm from Libya and I live in Tripoli with my family. Tripoli is a capital city in my country. I'm 27 and I'll be celebrating my twenty-eighth after two weeks. I'm an engineer, Also I'm Studying English language at the Academy.
I have a big family. I've a brother and three sisters. My brother is younger than me and he's an engineer. Also, my two little sisters are students and the last one is bigger than me and she's a dentist.
Now, I'm going to describe myself. I'm very tall and slim. I've brown eyes, tanned skin. Some people say I'm stylish.
I think I'm lovable, shy, helpful and hopeful, but I'm a bit positive person because I'm sometimes hesitant.
I don't have much free time because I study English in the morning and I go to work in the afternoon , but I have a great time with my friends at the weekends. I've many hobbies, I like taking photos and reading poems. Also, I like to talk to people from different countries to learn about their culture.
Best Regards,
Samar
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Hi, my name is Ana Maria and I have to write an research essay about this subject. So, my question is: have you ever had pet helped you to get through a hard period in your life? Helped you through depression? Can you share with me some of oyur experiences?
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Surely, this subject could go on and on. I could tell you about my favorite subjects and genres. I could tell you about how I first started writing, and what I first started writing about. Unfortunately, I don’t like to talk about myself much. It’s ironic because when I am free writing, I find that I am a very fascinating subject. No, I’m not tooting my own horn; far from it. Rather, I find that when I get my thoughts together, settle on subject relevant to my life and put forth profound questions to myself, my written words often contradict my spoken words. Some of my honest answers frighten me, and yet they alleviate me at the same time. The more I candidly write my deepest thoughts about life, the more I feel alive and free. Perhaps it is because I am a shy person. I don’t speak my mind much and when I do I don’t speak loud enough. This leaves room for others to define me in ways I often come to accept, while on paper I define me honestly and openly. My words; in person they are timid and tangled; in print they are bold and clear. That is how I found myself here. If writing is going to be my voice, I want to fine-tune it to make it as powerful as it can be. So what do I write, when I’m not picking the scabs of my intellect or writing about myself? That, too, is an endless subject, but I’ve chosen a specific topic: the characters in my stories. An odd choice, I know. When I first decided on it, I thought it didn’t begin to answer the question posed. In fact, I had chosen two topics, but as I delved into it further, I discovered that there was so much to tell. I realized that you could take just about any little aspect of your writing and it would tell you a great deal about who you are as a writer and as a person.
The characters in my stories are oftentimes not of my age group. They are usually older or younger. Funny, I’m quite deterred from writing characters of my age. Perhaps, because I would have a strong connection to that character; drawing upon and infusing my own experiences and I just don’t feel I’m atypical enough to make an interesting character, much less one anyone else could relate to. I must say I quite enjoy the disconnection of writing for a sixty-something-year-old or a tweener. (Heh, left myself plenty of room there. Gotta keep em guessing!) This probably stems from my very shy and private nature.
I notice I usually write super-ideal families—Mom, Pop, Jr , and his little sister—or semi-broken families: fatherless, motherless, or totally parentless in some tragic way. I’ve written widows, widowers, and the death of a child or sibling. Always families whose lives are benchmarked in good fortune or terrible tragedy. However, I always make the individuals strong. Plagued by a turbulent past but determined to make a better future. Ahem. Draw your own conclusions.
I write men more often than women; there’s that disconnect again. Both men and women are usually equally strong, smart, funny, loving, brooding, tough, caring etc, etc in my stories. Quite often, I’ll change my mind about a character’s gender several times during the writing process. The dialogue I write for women is a bit more playful, though.
I enjoy writing antagonists more than protagonists. There’s just something so form-fitted, boxed in, straight-out-of-the-playbook about protagonists, although they certainly need not be. Antagonists, for me, leave more room to get creative and delve into their motives etc. I submit to you that even the most interesting protagonists are often anti-heroes or have a chink in their armor otherwise known as antagonism.
Detectives are a favorite of mine, mostly because I’m a sucker for a good mystery! They’re usually brooding, very perceptive, and quick-witted with sharp remarks. Pretty much everything I’m not. They’ve gotta be loners, most of the time, because it leaves them emotionally vulnerable to the friendship of an (expected or unexpected) ally or the taunting (or unexpected rapport) of an enemy. I like writing scientists because I love the logistical freedom of science fiction. They are often on the brink of a mind-blowing discovery, alone in their endeavors to enlighten the rest of mankind, or dead and their lives are explored post-mortem. It allows for me to put out all my most imaginative, rambling ideas in the field of science and technology, of which I have many (too silly to mention here). Other than that, I’m wide open and varied on the occupations of characters!
Well, that’s a slice of me. One other thing I noticed: the mere fact that I chose to write about my characters rather than explicitly about myself, well, that just goes along with the theme.
So, who are you as a writer?
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It is a controversial moral issue in society for a general audience.
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Sometimes writing can be frustrating and difficult, but don't give up. Before you take a pen to paper the first thing that you have to do is remind yourself that you can achieve whatever you believe you can achieve.
Believing is not simple, it takes effort and discipline and a desire to do so. The key here is to WANT it.
You have to start by just writing. The polish comes later. Ideas are precious and fleeting, so put them down as they enter your mind, then go back later and organize and correct.
So you think you are not good in grammar, syntax, etc.? Not a major problem. There are so many sites (like this one for example) where
you have guidance to correct answers. You don't have to have all the answers in your head, just be good at finding them. Be willing to do a little web-surfing and you'll find everything you want to know.
You don't have to like writing to be good at it. Practice makes you good at it. So what if you don't want to practice? Well, oftentimes we have to write, we don't always have a choice. So, when you must do it, take your time and make every effort to do it correctly. That mindset alone will make you a better writer and sometimes even a Good writer.
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My family is the one thing that I constantly worry about these days. I am the eldest of three siblings. Growing up we went through a lot of things together, that most people wouldn't normally go through. My parents are alcoholics. We grew up seeing my parents fight verbally and physically. They separated when I was 12 yrs old. We stayed with my father for about 6months, gradually moving to my grandmothers, then to Phoenix , Arizona to stay with my mother and her boyfriend. My mother and her boyfriend always drank and always fought. I saw my mother get beaten more than my father ever had, or than what we actually saw. Her boyfriend was always trying to hit on me. During that time my mother was constantly accusing me of liking this jerk, so I guess that’s why he continued to harass me. I could have run away or just given up and moved with relatives, but I stuck it through and watched over my two sisters and my brother. Eventually we were able to get away and move into a housing project. I had never known of this area, I didn't know what kind of place I was living in until maybe 1 year living there. I never heard gunshots so close, or experienced gang violence. By this time my mother was always drinking. I was 14yrs old when I was always left in charge, woken in the middle of the night to hear my mothers bar stories. She would yell and make us feel like prisoners at home. She would leave weeks at a time. I started to work to keep money around when she left and I bought school clothes for me and my siblings. In the 9th grade I met an annoying immature guy named Alberto. The teacher I had at the time liked to pick on me personally. Mr. Munoz told Alberto “Sit behind the beautiful girl in the front row.” I automatically knew it was me, so that’s when our eyes met. I was in a terrible relationship still with a guy named Keith, who would always cheat on me and we argued constantly. After the childish games of hair pulling, kicking of my desk and pushing me aside when the bell rang, Alberto and I started to talk a lot more. We became boyfriend and girlfriend in May of 1998. This person has been the best thing that has ever happened to me. I never knew what it was like to be treated like a queen and to have unconditional love returned. My mother gave him the hardest time, she just wouldn't accept him. I know deep down she was jealous of my attention towards someone else. I was constantly imprisoned, Alberto ended up staying with his aunt in the same projects to be closer to me. His mother and sister moved to New Mexico by that time. Alberto agreed to take summer school just to be near me. We barely saw each other we wrote letters every day sometimes even twice a day, we had neighborhood kids deliver our letters for us. After 5 months together Alberto's mother requested that he was to move to New Mexico with her. This was the hardest thing to go through. We wrote letters and I didn't have a telephone so we couldn't call each other. About three months later Alberto was able to talk his mother into letting him stay with his father in Mesa , AZ. Which was an hour bus ride away from me. We were convinced we wanted to be together forever and didn't want to be torn apart. We planned my pregnancy, which now that I think about it if we hadn’t. I would have had to move with my mother, who wanted to move with her boyfriend who used to beat the crap out of her. I had to make the difficult decision of leaving my family to be with my boyfriend and our child. We got married at 17 in March of 2000. We are still together and going strong. We have our son Michael ,age 7, Anthony ,age 4 and our little surprise Audriana, age 3. The youngest was the only unexpected gift that we've received. As for my siblings, 4 months after I was married, we moved to my mother’s home in a northern AZ town to raise my siblings, so my mother could go to prison for DUI. Since last year in August 2007 my husband and I were finally able to live alone as a couple. We love it a lot. My eldest of two sisters, Cecilynn, is married to an immature prick and his over barring mother. She has two beautiful daughters. My youngest sister, Marsha, is finishing high school she's with my brother in law and has a son named Carlos. I love her to death but still makes me angry she's had everything given to her in life, I just hope she'll learn. Actually as much as she put me through, running away, probation, courts, juvie she has learned to respect me and my husband. My brother is in prison now. He is in a gang that, I had no idea of, he was introduced to when we lived in the housing projects. If I had known I would have whopped his ass, especially knowing what I later found out. He is an alcoholic and he uses street drugs. He has a beautiful son named Adam, who looks just like him. It hurts.. I write him as often as I can. I'm just tired of worrying about him. My mother and I are still talking. After months of refusing to deal with her drama, I was reunited by the aunt I love and respect. My mother is still trying to get over this jerk she's been involved with off and on all these years. I still to this day love and can't stand my mother sometimes. I left out a lot of drama over these years but I had to start from the very beginning. These days I 'm trying to focus on my husband and our babies. We are trying to continue our education and rebuild our dreams together. I want my kids to know that after all years of putting ourselves last, we can achieve so much together for our babies. I am very grateful to have this wonderful husband that has helped me over these years. So many others would of just walked away and never looked back. In conclusion I love my crazy, beautiful and dramatic family.
At a time when everybody already has one, here I am writing a blog for the very first. But who can resist the moving of the tide? Now I have to think about WHAT i am going to say with every entry
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