Looking for answers, talking to my Saviour Help me understand Lord, this human behavior I ask, dear Lord please explain Why is it that a child suffers such pain? How could it be? Why did he hurt me? Could I be to blame? I feel so much shame I should have screamed I should have run I was so frightened I was so young Through the years I suffered, alone Only to my destruction, did this condone Lost, I was than, I want to come home now, Dear Lord, I plead, please show me how Through the years of suffering, alone, you were not I, my child, watched over you, while distraught From My love for you, I died for your sin Now that you are home, I will heal this pain within.

I wake to a blade on my throat, the moonlight shines in my window, I hear the man's voice, low and mean what I’m told to do I do, I can see him but I say not a word. His breath brags down my throat, His tongue invades my mouth, and I pray for my soul. I make of my body a bunker when he enters. But when my eyes close, He is not there, because I am in the light. He can not touch me in the light.